I chug a glass
of tequila & coke;
let the efforts
settle in my body.
When I feel like
I'm not all there
then I can finally
live with myself.
Then I can stop
these tears flowing,
this ache in my gut
from coming up.
My head begins to
fill with alcohol,
and I let the feeling
consume me.
Anything to get out
of these thoughts,
anything to make
the pain stop.