There's a poison in my pores.
It seeps through my blood,
dripping down
through the generations.
There's a venom in my veins.
It's toxic enough
to drown out
any hopeful thoughts.
Instead it internalizes
all the hurt like a cancer
until it eats me alive.
Pain becomes what
courses through me.
My mind is a self-created hell.
It turns dreams to nightmares,
wishes into curses.
My brain is broken,
wrecked with wiring issues
beyond my control.
I was born into this misery
and it will take more
to reprogram my head
than a flip of a switch.