For months I harbored
resentment against you
that it infected everything I did.
It influenced all my decisions
that I couldn't focus
on the truth anymore.
I fell for these lies
that made me forget you
if only for the night.
I cried my last tear for you
because I can't keep
drowning like this.
I wished you well
because I had nothing
left to say.
It's funny how we can become
It's funny how we can become so affected, that we can turn and travel a long way down a road we never would have wanted to. Once we come to we can see it is wrong for us, we try desperately to find our way back to the straighter path. All because we were driven off course by the painful feelings and the overcorrecting we do to try to convince ourselves we're overcoming an separation we haven't gotten over.
I really connect with what you wrote. Though your words and life, they speak of a very personal struggle in mine.