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January 2005 5:28 am
1-15-05
I am now.
And have always been.
A very loving and trusting person.
I try to hide it all.
Under the rough outside.
But I have let a few people in.
To see what lays beneth.
I have seemingly always misplaced that trust.
Putting it into undeserving individuals.
Putting it into those that did not love me.
But how can you tell the difference.
Between those that say they love you.
And those that actually do.
Is it the ones that won't respect your decisions.
Or the ones that don't respect them.
Because they believe them to be the wrong choices.
Is it the ones that do whatever you ask of them.
And then go along behind your back.
And bitch about you.
I just don't know who to trust anymore.
Who to let in.
Who to try and love.
I so want to fall in love.
Living happily ever after.
And all I end up with is pain.
Pain sorrow and hurt.
Over and over again.
Will I ever find love.
Or is it already in my bed?
I think we all go through what you mention in this piece at one time or another. It's not easy because you wonder what's next, what do you do next and who really can be trusted,but if you don't take a chance you don't find out.There's always light in the tunnel so one must journey continuously to find it. Great piece!