somewhere here i will be lost
you will scroll through the many worlds
pasted and posted here in words
and in less than the blink of an eye
this pouring out of emotion that
i so desperately try to convey
to some imaginary host
of incredible feats of
wisdom and romance
and literary prowess
and deep thought
despite all that yearning
i know
somewhere here
i will be lost
how many presses
of the index finger on the
right arrow or the 'next' page
link will i have moved down
an hour, a day, a month from now
how many others are there beyond
page two, i must confess i don't
even know
they have a word for what i want
to do
but can't stoop that low,
that word just seems icky!
it's lower than what i'm already
doing here and now with these verses
shall i now stoop yet lower
to try and make this read "sticky"?!
is there a way to make your
eyes - just one particular set of eyes
from amongst the possible tens or
hundreds or millions that view this site
- just a single set of pupils and rods
and cones and electrical signals -
make them fire upon reading this page?
or can i convince myself it is enough
to simply type this and post it
in that i will have said and done
what i set out to do - and have
comfort in the fact that
even if there are no comments back
from you
i might just hope to see
that my "views" go up by one!?
will that be enough!?
should i imagine that on
a sunsetting beach
somewhere near a warm ocean
you paused to notice this post
as i sit in mid winter trapped
behind a wall of sleet and snow
and contemplate you,
that you too for an instant
contemplated me,
and that was the single
"view" that i received.
will imagining that
be enough for me?
like a prisoner
sitting behind bars
for years on end
speaking to the moon
and the stars
as if they were his beloved
and hoping they will
carry his thoughts afar
to the ears and hearts
of the ones he longs for..
i confess i don't know
if at this moment
is that me?
or is that you?
X.
Hmmm.... "is that me? Or is
Hmmm.... "is that me? Or is that you?"
Know the feeling, questioning the same now.
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