Sticky

somewhere here i will be lost

you will scroll through the many worlds

pasted and posted here in words

and in less than the blink of an eye

this pouring out of emotion that

i so desperately try to convey

to some imaginary host

of incredible feats of

wisdom and romance

and literary prowess

and deep thought

despite all that yearning

i know

somewhere here

i will be lost

 

how many presses

of the index finger on the 

right arrow or the 'next' page

link will i have moved down

an hour, a day, a month from now

 

how many others are there beyond

page two, i must confess i don't

even know

 

they have a word for what i want

to do

but can't stoop that low, 

that word just seems icky!

it's lower than what i'm already

doing here and now with these verses

shall i now stoop yet lower

to try and make this read "sticky"?!

is there a way to make your

eyes - just one particular set of eyes

from amongst the possible tens or

hundreds or millions that view this site

- just a single set of pupils and rods

and cones and electrical signals -

make them fire upon reading this page?

 

or can i convince myself it is enough

to simply type this and post it

in that i will have said and done 

what i set out to do - and have

comfort in the fact that

even if there are no comments back

from you

i might just hope to see

that my "views" go up by one!?

 

will that be enough!?

 

should i imagine that on 

a sunsetting beach 

somewhere near a warm ocean

you paused to notice this post

as i sit in mid winter trapped

behind a wall of sleet and snow

and contemplate you,

that you too for an instant 

contemplated me, 

and that was the single 

"view" that i received.

will imagining that

be enough for me?

 

like a prisoner

sitting behind bars

for years on end

speaking to the moon 

and the stars

as if they were his beloved

and hoping they will 

carry his thoughts afar

to the ears and hearts

of the ones he longs for..

 

i confess i don't know

if at this moment

 

is that me?

or is that you?

 

X.

 

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Hmmm.... "is that me? Or is

Hmmm.... "is that me? Or is that you?"

Know the feeling, questioning the same now.

 


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