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I love you
I wish, no I hope that one day you will read this... No understand that I love you, I don't know why I feel this way, and I aways feared that you won't except it. I hardly know you, yet I am afraid to be around you, but yet I don't fear anything when I'm around you. You give me strength, you make me impove myself, give me joy even in my darkest hour, and I don't know why or if I ever will. It's like I see something that is in you that I once knew, or had, or know that I will never have... But I'm not jealous, Im simply in love with you. When i started to love you, it felt like I never knew what love was before. And if you do love me too, don't come for me, don't tell me, my heart isn't as strong as yours. And I love you enough to bear this pain, not to hurt you and let you go, because I am poison. I only wish that I spent that one night with you, i fought to sleep in your bed and you even beg me to stay but I didn't. That one night, I could have told you, or kissed you, before I fell further in love with you. I don't think that at moment of time it wouldn't have hurt as bad as now knowing that I will...could never have you,or be around you. I don't think I would be able to control myself anymore. I should have told you, I should have kiss you, I should have grabed you and never let go. And its a shame because i don't think anyone, in this crazy existence of ours, will love you as much as I. But thank you, thank you so much for your smile, your laugh, your kindness, and your strong heart. Don't lose yourself at anyone expense you are prefect, an angel, something that I'm pround of... I'm pround because for a short time of my life, a very short time I got to be called your friend, and be a part of your life. So please don't hate me, I dont think I will ever tell anybody that's it's you, I don't even know if you will read this or would think that it's you. Just know it's you, and I'm no fool I know no matter how much you love someone, it doesn't mean they will ever love you back or even know how you truly feel. You will aways be loved in my eyes and in my heart. I hope you find happiness because when you smile, it seems that the flowers and even the sun gets a little bit more brighter. I love you and nothing will ever change that, not even if god himself told me not to, I would stand up even to him and say it once more, I love you...
