Pain surrounded
Always drowning
In a life
Not meant for me
Got away
Screwed it up
Fucked everything up
With choices
No one could
Possibly understand
Hell I still don't
Not really
Needed to feel
Needed
Like I mattered
To someone
Found them
Those someones
Didn't know
How to deal
Still don't
Still don't understand
What they saw
Behind the eyes
Of someone so lost
Was tired of being
Walked on
Taken forgranted
And never accepted
I jumped at the
First friendly faces
The ones who finally
showed they cared
But didn't know
How to deal
So I fucked it up
Even now
I don't get it
I just don't see
What they saw in me