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I am constantly searching for the answers to why,
Why I live in this superficial fake lie.
I see how things are supposed to go.
It's all an act, just part of the show.

I fall into each and every trap,
You push me away but for some reason I keep coming back.

Can't just give up, my choices running thin.
Live in peace, or continue to sin?

Why can't I just do this alone?
Just the way that I've grown.
Always had someone near,
The reason is not very clear.

So many excuses, still asking myself why.
It's almost like I give them a reason to lie.
And in return I receive another reason to cry.
It's just not that easy to say goodbye.

When will I ever be good enough,
To be more than just an easy fuck.
I sit back, let them take control.
Until I reach that ultimate low.

Not sure to walk away or try and stay.
It comes down to where I choose to lay.
I can sleep as long as I know someone is near.
Hear the deep breaths in my ear.

I lie and omit what I don't want to be heard.
Some would find it to be absurd.
They just speak their painful words.
Many behaviors have just been learned.

Always searching and looking for more.
Deep inside my heart is torn.
Not sure what will soothe my pain.
Walking through life in constant disdain.