Do you enjoy reading my stillborn feelings
that I have placed here for your amusement
Tell me you're amused
Let me hear the applause
Congradulations on giving life
But life was sucked out
on that Thursday
The stench of the chemicals seeping from
his coffin...
and I was the only one who could smell it
Ive spent three weeks kissing hugging and
beating the fuck out of a toilet seat
Chopped up confetti
and all of it to only wake up and
find out how short life really is
You have been searching and searching
and you still dont know whos in that dizzy little mirror
Perhaps its from the condensation of your breath
Or the new void inside of you where his
is missing
I should stop blaming God
and start blaming myself for never
loving
deep
enough.
I held him for the last time
and he told me thank you
as the tears ran selflessly out my eyes
I know the cold room
is a better place for you.
There are profound depths of emotion to this poem---much between the lines.
Starward