I Hope Your Proud

 

What would I say if you were there

in front of me,

This stranger, who lost me.

How many times I picture

your ghostly figure,

Like a distant memory you

slip away.

 

The very notion of your existence

is like a dream,

A dream from which when I wake,

you’ll be there to comfort me.

But the cold truth that I have to accept

sickens me.

You have now become a burden

from which I cannot breathe.

 

My father, what caused you to disown me,

throw me away.

Were you too scared? Well now

you’ve scarred me.

I carry the weight and shame of you

everyday.

You’ve made my life disfigured

from your selfish ways.

 

Inside my mind, you deserve pain.

To loose everything you care about,

like me.

But my heart lets these thoughts

drift away,

I conclude you are still my DNA.

 

There’s this constant feeling that I am missing

half my heart,

It aches like an emptiness which longs for you.

People always say I’m a Daddy’s girl,

I share you eyes and smile,

not that you care.

 

With everyday that passes,

the feeling opens like a wound.

I now look for attachment that

can replace you.

The photo of you is an omen,

a what could have been.

But the pain will never fade

 when I’m not near you.

 

Will I see you one day?

Our matching chubby cheeks and eyes

from miles away.

Will you cry with me from the pain?

 

I will never stop searching for your face

in a crowd.

 Dad, I love you, I hope your proud.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Something I wrote a few years ago. Would like feedback!

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wow thats a poem that i

wow thats a poem that i sometimes fell to write but yours is just how much pain you been through n thats like alot to begin with liike wow i mean that poem is just really amazing