Torn

I want to feel

I want to love

I want my father back

I want to push him away

I want to run away from here

And yet I want to stay

Why do I feel like this?

Why have I lost so much in so short a time?

It wasn't so long ago that I was happy

Wasn't I?

I loved myself

I miss it, who I was

It has changed

Why?

Why does it have to change?

Why do I have to loose my innocence?

Why can't I just remain a child forever?

What have I done to deserve this?

I was good, wasn't I?

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I found this on my computer. I wrote it after leaving CA. My Father was in Chicago and my world was changing. This was me fighting the change.

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Sam Edwards's picture

Kassie,
You are a brilliant writer, a thinker and very expressive. With such talent as this why would you ever leave a poem untitled? IN a rush? #9 poem could very well be titled, "Answer This", your #10 poem can easily be seen as "Torn". But title them, for they delve into your thoughts about why you wrote in the first place! I love your poems, I don't want to sound negative, thank you for writing!--Sam