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The Step I Didn't Take
Today Im feeling
feeling like theres nothing left
nothing left for me to do
everything else doesn't matter
my heart beats with such a clatter
Now im more confused then ever before
I feel like a broken man
straight from the sand
risen from the ashes
only to get put down again
now i seek salvation through alcohol
only to shrink with my last call
until the day I fall
The taste...
sweet as honey
going down slowly
drinking on so boldly
The taste of crown royal
delicious
as I lay here in a coil
looking up at the ceiling
with this unnamed feeling
Is it depression?
fear?
Who cares, time for some beer
The future is uncertainty
so you cant plan ahead
just get drunk instead
Am I pathetic to you?
well whatever
take a walk in my shoes
your father hates you
drinks, smokes, and abuses you
he calls me a worthless piece of shit
and he can start a mad fit
in an instant
Ive never been good enough for him
so I just gave up on him
as this light rusts and begins to dim
I have another touch
a touch like no other
one that makes me feel ok
but without her
I cant keep my demons at bay
and the day becomes gray
She doesn't feel the way I do
yet she cares for me
and thats ok
Im done
done being sad
time to get glad
enough of these fucking cliche's
I will stand tall today
no one can bring me down
NO ONE!!
I may be hiding
and drinking
but I have my pride
and self-respect
so go away
my soul you cant infect
Truth is rushing into my eyes
like a prophet vision
I see that ive lost it
now its time to recover
Im gonna be ok
you dont need to bother
Ive taken the step
the step I didn't take
I am NOT fake
Hey, all of you people
you know who im talking to
all you fucking people that bring me down
made my tears fall with a sound
scar my soul with words of hell
reminding me of where I fell
YOU HAVE NO IMPACT OF MY LIFE
YOU ARE JUST IN MY WAY
GET LOST I HATE YOU
IM DONE TAKING SHIT
NO MORE, I WONT BE MY DAD
QUIT TRYING TO MAKE ME BAD
Ive taken my step
I don't need your shit
your no guide
I sense your lies
You think you helped?
You were just in my way...
Hey man, it's the Legend again. I really like this one man. I love the lines that say:
"I have another touch
a touch like no other
one that makes me feel ok
but without her
I cant keep my demons at bay
and the day becomes gray"
That is so damn cool man. I am trying to be a good friend to everyone now, ya know? I hope I never turn out to be one of those that drag you down. I love the lines above, butmy favorite lines in the poem are:
"Now im more confused then ever before
I feel like a broken man
straight from the sand
risen from the ashes
only to get put down again
now i seek salvation through alcohol
only to shrink with my last call
until the day I fall"
I'm telling you man, you are just going to be bad as Hell if you just keep on writing and practicing, but you already are so good right now. Just keep it up and i'll make a deal with you... You just keep writing, and I'll keep on reading them, Alright? Cool.