Thinking Of You
In the early light called dawn
I reach for you, knowing you have gone.
The warmth of the sheets where your body was
has grown cold now to the touch of my fingers.
As I move to your side of the bed
the scent of you lingers
on the sheets, on the pillow
in the air that I breathe.
You are the air I breathe.
Although, it has been awhile
since you showered, shaved and left for work.
There is an afterglow that remains.
But as I think of you, the glow rekindles.
My body hot to the core, my pulse accelerates,
and I hold the pillow with your scent closer to me.
Now as I wander from the bed to the bath,
you are still on my mind, missing you and
wanting you......again.....and again.
I pause by your closet, door ajar.
To reach in and touch your shirts
and imagine your chest beneath the fabric.
While I stand in the shower
the water caress my skin as did your hands.
Warm, soft, completely.
And now this great fluffy towel surrounds me
and I wish it were your arms and
your body so close to mine.
I want to feel your hands on my shoulders,
your breath and lingering kisses upon my neck.
Whispers soft in my ear.
Instead, as I pass the phone, I stop.
And dial you at the office, knowing you're not yet there.
Just to hear your voice.....when your voicemail answers.
I've read this poem a dozen times and never critiqued or commented. I guess because it hits so hard at something that I thought was gone. I remember when my ex-husband was in the military and far from home, that I got on an elevator and closed my eyes because I hate that jolting "UP" start. All at once I smelled his aftershave and the tears began to roll quietly down my face. I knew it wasn't him, but I could smell HIS scent and with my eyes closed--see HIS face. I wonder if he ever loved ME that much??..
Love,
Jessica