You came and went with the seasons
wandering deeper and deeper into yourself
leaving a trace of transparent footprints from here to there
you said it was whatever, "to hell with your health"
and God dammit, I should have treasured more deeply than I did
the mere fact that you insinuated I-
could sleep with you so closely in your head
you picked me apart and told me I was something
still I am not sure what exactly you meant by that
but my God, I was pleasured to be anything to someone
if that someone had the nerve to be you
no longer did I feel chained to the confines of my bed
and tears still came but they weren't ash black like before
YOU MEANT THE WORLD TO ME AND I FELT MORE LIKE A GIRL
dammit, I loved you and I still do
if I have felt anything for anyone since it was not genuine because
every quality of every person I have smiled at
in that instance may have resembled you, and I regret-
what I was thinking when
pushing you away to retract seemed like such a good idea
of a way to measure the degree of love you may or may have not felt
for me but instead
You took your leave completely thinking you inflicted this flawed process of thought in me
but in reality I am so much better with your rash opinions and your bloodshot eyes
and your stormy weather
though we're both disgusting vile creatures on our own agenda
we could make such beautiful sunny days together
Feeling
tomorrow is a new day and you can feel that again. The key is to get someone that feels the same for you.. Then it is great.