God, Rachael, Chris

I'm not free

I don't feel like

I hate to wake up every day

I wish I could die

Without anyone having to cry

I wish I could leave this place and still survive

But I know that I can't

Not with everything that I know

People to love

Go much more things to give

Friendships that need my faith

What faith do I have?

When I talk about being dead

Am I so fake to feel like that?

I hope that I am not

Or my advice has all be shot



Such a fake name behind this fake face

If I never found someone like you, Rachael

I don't know what I would ever do

I would probably be dead

I'd suffocate my head

If it wasn't for you



If it wasnt for you

I would never feel like I have friends

I wouldn't know where to go to make amends

If I didn't have someone like you

I don't know what I'd do

We made it this far

There is still a lifetime to go

I'd never have friends if it weren't for you, Chris

For that I appreciate all we have bene though

All the lies that have been told

All the people who hated us

We've made it this far

All because of you



My two best friends in the world

One a guy, the other a girl

Both are different in so many ways

Both I give my heart out to each of these days

I wouldn't be alive if not for you

I wouldn't be happy if it wasn't for you

We can look back and be amazed on all we've been though

This is my "thanks" for being you

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The first part, is me about me...although some of it is probably about the "me" of the past, someone I am not anymore.  The middle 2 paragraphs are about Rachael and Chris...my two best friends who have been there for me the longest- thanx so much for everything!  The last paragraph is basically an explanation.

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