Like a shot in the veins
Life tore through me with pains
And taught me yet again how to fall
Constantly reminded now not to choke
Looked so down upon like a joke
I have no idea now where to run
Unfortunately saddend by the news
I only did what I knew to do
And I slipped and fell down yet again
Once was told that I was too blind to see
That the only life I would find was on bended knee
Now do you see where it's taken me?
Friends kissing friends
Playing pretend
I have no clue when this maddness will end
It makes me hurt
Maybe makes me cry
I don't wanna live, just let me die
Depressive state is now where I wait
Stress level high, I'm barely awake
Heart beats faster with the time, turns my life into a rhyme
I was always the one right there for you
Now that I am where you were, what are you to do?
Do you even care that much?
Found a new lover, once called a friend
Much to old, too nieve to make amends
Look where I have taken you, what did I do?
Growing up, I guess was not enough
I never thought life would be this tough
Maybe a father 400 miles away, why does life end up this way?
Singing so softly, every single word
Trying hard not to mess up, don't want to disturb
But don't you see, we lost to ourselves?
Told me truths that were hidden throughout my own lies
It makes me hurt, makes me want to cry
I should have known all along, I'm too nieve and wrong
Sadder songs playing in my head each and every day
Just let me die, let me fade away,
I am so sorry for what I've done
Consequences to actions that were long past due
The thought pops in my head each time I think of you
I wonder what if and if I can, what does it take to be a man?
Much too much stress to want to move
Lay down right here is exactly what I want to do
Please don't make me face the day, I am sorry in every way
Saddly mistaken are words I know oh so well and true
I hear them each time I try to make a guess about you
Your lies hidden deep within, let them out tell me your sin
It is exactly what I've done too
Every little hurt that we have all been through
I want to make sure you are ok, I want to know how sure are you?
Saddly mistaken, I have to bring this to an end
This means but jibberish unless you are my friend
Please don't ever turn out like I am
I am a problem that will never mend
Joel...you write about death a lot don't you?? It's really sad! Good tho! :D