Inner and Outer Revolutions

There is a monster lurking beneath this mind…



Entered through my senses.



It’s paws are holding my ideas,



Nails scratching my thoughts deeper.



Perceptions are poisoned, Concepts erased.



It’s deadly venom is slowly spreading…



Killing me softly.







I’m falling.



In the pit of confusion.



Is it me, or is it the world?



Is there something wrong with the world?



Or something’s wrong with me?







What’s wrong with…



Pure desire.



To make things better.



To lend a hand.



An ear.



heart and soul?



I’m Desperate.







A rebelled spirit.



Freed many times…



Empowered.



But still shouting on the inside.



FREE ME!!!



Release me from these cages.



Inside and out…



From this gnawing monster



Of knowing and ignorance…



Of self-determination and fear…



Of myself…you…and the world.







Why choose freedom?



Why do all these things?



I received life as a gift…



I choose my own story.



Why story?



Because whether you like it or not,



THERE WILL BE.







So free me.



And so I can…



Live at the moment,



Learn what is needed,



Share what is essential,



Do what must be done.


Author's Notes/Comments: 

Have you ever did your best for something that seemed nothing? Know yourself too much that you don't know yourself anymore? Heard so much that you barely hear yourself? Seen so much that you just want to shut your eyes?...At the orphanage center, I've done almost everything and all I needed to do was to wait: WAIT for the draft communication letter to be signed and sent, WAIT for the photographer to come by for the children's media exposure, WAIT for the parenting capability assessment I requested from the head center...I don't mind waiting and all, but it is in waiting that my senses become sensitive to what's happening inside and out.
"Everyday is a winding road"-Sheryl Crow
~jerlin  

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Katie M's picture

This is a cool poem. I really like it. It's one of my favorite poems on this site. Keep up the good work!