you fill me
with a subtle essence
that i can no longer
breathe without,
at times
with your absence
you can suddenly
take it away
without cruel deliberation
the poisons of jealousy
that corrodes all logic
would diffuse into my nostrils
leaving me
gasping
wrecked with a terrible pain
almost physiologic
violent, in its rage
as i let my greed for you
consume me
i die slow deaths
in this sick carousel
yet still, i will my lungs to fight
for each breath,
to unlearn this reflex
to fight the venomous pain
of this self-inflicted hell
i saturate myself
with your presence
and yearn for the antidote
to take effect
Intensely painful to read, and, therefore, highly successful.
Starward