The Sadness in Your Soul

I stared at an empty horizon not knowing what to wish for... I feel the calm breeze whispering in my ear... telling me its secrets... its desires.... Why are you so nice to me? I don't know... for your feeble words are but whispers... mumbles... unheard pleadings...



I am alone... sitting in this rock... gazing upon the sunset... watching the first stars dance with each other in the sky. I envy them... why must they seem so happy? Their sparkle... so brilliant... why?



Invite me? ME?! Of all the mortal beings of this earth... thou stars, thou great beings call upon me? How gladly I would come to your ball if I could... but I cannot. For I am just a simple being....



Sun setting... stars gathering about... the moon welcomes me in her kingdom with delight. Why must the moon be so pretty? Why can't I be as such? I am not worthy to be summoned in this engagement...



The waves swishing... tickling my toes... what a glorious sensation... mermaids... beckoning me to come... such mystifying creatures... what beauty! Though... must I come? Why me? Of all mortal beings on this earth... why me?

Fishes in the sea... welcoming my presence... breathe? Why? Yes... I can breathe... what great power I now possess... yet... why must the water be salty with tears?



Confusion... drowning... help... save....



-blackout-



Why must the stars betray me? What did I do wrong? Why me of all mortal beings on this earth?



Why must the sea be so cruel? What have I done to receive such punishment? Why me of all mortal beings on this earth... why me?



Laying in the grassy field... a meadow of flowers... betrayed by everything I have loved... why? Did I do wrong upon them?



Giggles... yet from who? The flowers... they smile... must they betray me too?



Amusing... love...



love...



Yet... what shall free me from this vine that wraps my soul? When will I spread my wings and fly with the stars? When can I show them that I am someone? A loss they can no longer find...



You? Who are you? Your smile awfully fair.... such sweetness in thy kiss... poisoning me... why? Must I not exist? Do I even have the right to live?



You... love... me...



love...



love...



Yet could it really be?



Against a tree I lay... pale and bare...



cold...



cold...



your warmth is so seducing... why...

why? Such perfection... your body.... such passion... our souls combining... love... love.



Passion... love...



I am drowning in your love...



Drew upon thy sword.... stabbed me... deeper... deeper... reality... flesh... blood... why?



Why must thou end my life? Why of all the mortal beings on this earth... why me?



Stripped... naked... now I am nothing. Stars, water, land... all laughing at my fate. I have loved you! Yet why did you let me feel the sadness?



Why did I not listen to the wind? Why? Why did I not pay attention to its warnings? The stars trying to keep me from meeting you... why?! Why must I have been so foolish to swim with the mermaids? to be betrayed by the moon? and be in your arms...



oh! the most glorious thing ever!



You... I love...



love... passion...



again in your arms... your warmth... that touch so divine. Such pure intentions. Thus plucking petal after petal, I am beckoned deeper... thirsty for more...



love...



love...



Oh Such beauty! I love your slender body... resting against mine... yet why? Why do I feel this sorrow? I have died and lived... died and lived once more... for you... all for you...

Yet what did I do wrong? Why must I die... and die some more?

How I wish your smile was so true... yet you are such a wonderful mystery. I shall die, and live, and die... anything for you... no matter how many times you thrust your sword deeper in my flesh... I shall bear the pain... die and live... die and live...



Awakening... gazing upon the horizon... such a long adventure in one night... a dream?



Live and die, a dream?



Stabbed to death? nothing but a mere dream?!



Yet thy body.... lying motionless beside me... unclothed angel... such beauty...



Yet why? Why must you lay unconscious on the silky blankets of the night?



Talk to me! wake up!



cold? COLD?!



NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!



...ended my pain.. ended my sorrow... cold...



Your sword... such noble friend... I thrust in my soul... deepening my wounds... following you, feeling my way through the darkness...



A light! should I follow? no... temptation... no...



LOVE! such passion...



Where shall I seek your love?



creeping night... saddened soul...



broken glass shattered by the wall...



I am with you... yet why must I feel the sadness in your soul too despite of my own?

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the "emo" year. hahahahaha


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