To Walk on Blades of Misfortune

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The Wanderer

Wrists cry what eyes cannot

From the knife she draws a sign

To feel what she has forgot.

 

Closed eyes and a bent lip bit

To see in darkness the rush;

Peace is the pain she will knit.

 

As she paints her tiger strips,

Pride sparks from tired eyes

Wanting more from inner fights.

 

A family sleeps, she silently weeps.

But she will never shed a single tear,

Controlling herself with swift sweeps.

Fumbling feelings are her only fear.

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life_used_to_be_lifelike's picture

So beautiful. I used to cut

So beautiful. I used to cut when I was a teenager and you accurately describe the scene. Your very first line was brilliant and I'm still reeling from it.


"It is a terrible thing to be so open. It is as if my heart put on a face and walked into the world" -- Sylvia Plath.

hopelessly-candid's picture

Cutting is really just

Cutting is really just devastating, especially the fact that someone could experience that much emotional pain as to hurt themselves. I'm sorry you went through that. I used to cut as well. Thank you for your compliments :)

S74rw4rd's picture

Great on two levels

This poem is great on two levels.  First, and most obvious, the message:  your poem speaks for many who cannot or will not speak for themselves.  But second, the mechanism of the poem itself---the balance between the words, the metaphors, the lines.  Reading this poem is like hearing the internal movement of some elaborate and fantastic mechanism:  the very rhythm and sound of it is both unique and compelling.


Starward

hopelessly-candid's picture

I'm delighted to hear you

I'm delighted to hear you thought so! Thank you so very much! :) Though, I think your comments themselves are better than the actual poem. ^_^

allets's picture

I Don't Get Cutting

I want to be sensitive to those who are so impelled, the compulsion like alcoholism, difficult to stop. But then I don't get women who stay to be beaten or watch their children be brutalized. Humans have the ability to create mental pain, and that's tough enough to deal with, physical pain, self-induced? I don't get cutting. ~allets~


 

 

hopelessly-candid's picture

It's something that confuses

It's something that confuses a lot of people.... and hurts the loved ones of someone whom self harms... I wrote this to give some perspective into why I think people may cut

allets's picture

To Feel Something

to be noticed and not self-seen as nothing perhaps. A precusor to suicide, or a rejection of having too little or too much in a world of emptiness and plentitude. I used to hate alcoholics - I still do. Choice is taken away or consciously made - both are tragedies. Cutting the flesh is not a good choice. There are so many others available ~Lady A~

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lizardking's picture

well put

i never really got it either. i've known people who did it and i thought it was because they needed to destroy something, with the pent up anger and frustration of being aware of the world we live in, and self-destruction is better than destroying their surroundings. we all self-destruct in different ways.

hopelessly-candid's picture

Yes, I think it's about

Yes, I think it's about self-destruction. But even more than that, I think it might be about defiling yourself... physically becoming what you already feel inside... taking out the worthless you feel into a physical marking... kind of similar to when Edward Norton in Fight Club beats up Jared Leto's character... saying he wanted to destroy something beautiful... well cutting is a bit similar... wanting to strip away beauty and innocence from yourself