hurt myself again to see if i could still feel it.
i’ll keep going until i can.
god im fuckin dramatic.
fall for someone as hard as i have and then maybe you’ll get it too.
i try to cry and nothing comes out.
i try to sleep and all i can do is just sit in the pitch black.
i try to eat and it gets stuck in my throat.
i try to pick up the phone and call her and all i can do is freeze.
i try to breathe.it’s then that i cry.
i try not to remember anything and it’s then that her face and her words swim inside my head.
the worst part is that there’s no one else to blame.
maybe death will be less painful than losing my everything.
maybe i don’t deserve the best.but she told me i did.and she gave it to me.
and tore it all down...
be my friend again.pretend nothing happened.
don’t mae me have to do this by myself again.