There Lays My Hatred

I found myself in a mind of a child,
You grew up without me,
I love you so,
There is a change in this world.

I want you and I need you,
And I hope you want me too.
A necessity, I wish I was,
I just want you to know I am sorry.

I do not know,
What else to do.
I just know I want to be with you,
because you're the most wonderful.

I have lived my life through,
I was ready to empty it out,
Forgetting the times that were so sweet,
I forget what it was like.

Forgive me I beg,
Forgive me I plead,
Forgive me I love you,
Forgive me I won't do it again.

There lays my hatred.
The scorn for myself.
Change who I am,
and now I am free.

I hold onto you forever,
Just do not let go of me,
I do not think I could bear to lose you now,
In fact--I am giving you it all for sure this time.

I keep myself going,
With the memories of your smile,
I keep myself going,
Remembering the feeling of your hand in mine.

Just do not let me go,
There lays my hatred of life,
When you let me come back,
And in these moments, I am most afraid.
But I am most glad.

Pencil in my hand,
A letter I wrote,
The end of everything,
I tore it up, forgot it.
You are what I want.

Remember the endless nights,
The night sky when we walked alone,
The joy that was within,
The house full of people,
And I, the odd one out, you held close to.

I have spent all my value into coming back,
I work not to help myself,
But to keep us together,
To make more memories of us together,
Just like that loving Christmas night.

I saw you in the sky,
Where we first met for the first time,
We were both scared--but joy was so intense,
We could not believe that our dreams,
Our dreams were coming true.

Dance the night away,
Staring into your eyes,
We are on top of the world,
Regret of not capturing those moments,
Into a frame that is eternal.

We have another chance.
We can have another eternal night.
We can put it onto the wall.
Paint the world red.
I stil love you, always and forever.

I cannot stop thinking,
I cannot stop being so grateful,
I cannot stop my heart,
The beat that which it moves,
The rythm of our love.

Every moment that I saw your face,
Every moment I appreciated,
Those are the times we anticipated,
We broke the laws of the world,
Just to be together.

I write to make you feel that love,
I type to try to fix the pain,
I hope it all goes away,
I want to know it will be fine,
I want to know I make you happy.

You are my joy,
You have my heart,
You are not something to give up,
You are my mirror reflection,
You are the puzzle piece that makes me whole.

Cry out of pain,
No longer,
Cry out of joy,
Please do,
Cry together, out of love, oh so please.

There lays my hatred,
The hatred for the world,
Whenever I was with you,
Everything that was wrong,
It all went away.

I cried on the way home,
Back to the desolate white desert,
Remembering how it felt,
To feel your warmth of love,
Remembering the perfection of such a vivid dream.

Let us live that dream,
Let us be that dream,
Let there be problems,
Let us fix them,
Let us be together.

I love you.

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poetvg's picture

i love this
poem sometimes
i wish that i
was perfect to
but then i change
my mind later about the
wish that i wished .earlier