my head pounds so hard tonight, the thoughts won't leave my head
I try to talk to you and tell you how I feel and listen to all you've said
my moods are unstable and I feel so wierd inside of me, I can't explain
all that I know is that one minute I feel fine the next minute there is pain
so I look up to the sky and I ask you if you are listening and if you're there
and you say my child I am right here by your side and I will listen and will care
I tell you that it hurts and that I don't feel quite like myself tonight
and you hold me and tell me my child don't worry everything will be all right
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I scream out to you
cause I dunno what to do
so I scream out your name
cause I can no longer take this pain
you are my God therefore I get on my knees
and you kneel down too and you say to me
everything will be okay, I am here
with me there is no reason to fear
tonight is the night when the demons come from out from hiding
I watch them on my walls and on the ceiling as they are gliding
the shadows come to life as they make there way around my room
and as they come towards me I feel myself fill up with doom
the tears run down my cheeks as I grab a little cross
cause Jesus died for me so that my soul would never be lost
and so he takes my hand and said my child do not be afraid
if you close your eyes and trust in me I will make these monsters fade
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I scream out to him in the darkness of the night
and when I close my eyes I can see his shining light
reminding me that I will never be alone all by myself
and that he has picked me up everytime that I fell
and he will pick me up again just like before
so there is no reason to be afraid anymore
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Wow! This is wonderful Em!Gotta love the message here...if only we could all be brave enough to trust that God will take care of us no matter what...stuff that happens is just too unreal sometimes but I heard God never gives you more than you can bear and yet I often feel pushed at the edge and yet I always survive somehow, so somebody up there likes me I guess...Anyways, great message and I understand how you feel...your poetry pal,Pam
PS please check out my most recent poem I don't think anyone commented on yet...about Mari, my friend who instigated a crazy last minute trip to LA for the day that I will always treasure...just recently found out she died a few years ago from another friend on the trip...I am so bad at keeping in touch....anyways I wrote a poem dedicated to her spirit and hope she hears it or sees it somehow....God-willing....Pam