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Pretending.......Just Pretending
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2005 pretending I'm happy as can be
wearing a fake smile on my face
pretending I'm someone thats not me
there is someone else in my place
pretending I'm not hurting at all deep inside
laughing a fake laugh when I feel like crying
hiding every single tear that has been cried
and no one would even guess that I am lying
pretending to be very together
hiding all of the deep pain
telling everyone I feel better
when really I'm going insane
pretending I have no problems at all
hiding my heart that is torn apart
never letting anyone see me fall
never letting anyone know of my inner war
pretending that I don't hate myself
pretending that I'm not drowning
hiding the knife I use to cut my flesh
making sure you don't see me frowning
I hope that is just a line and that you actually don't cut yourself...life is painful enough sometimes without causing your own pain deliberately...I think we all pretend a lot, we have to...pretend everything is ok when we know it is not or we would all be insane...sometimes it is hard to pretend but sometimes pretending we can fool ourselves into feeling happy....like if we force a smile or laugh,genuine smile or laughter may come..it is worth a try...very well written, makes you think a lot...Pam