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So Slow
My world’s on edge
My emotions are flowing
I sit here screaming
Without anyone knowing.
My hands are shaking
My heart is at ache
I’m taking short breaths
And I never get a break.
My teeth are chattering
And my eyes fill with tears
All I seem to think about
Are my millions of fears.
My eyes are swollen
I only tell lies
And everyday I’m finding
Less things to get me by.
My skin is so soft
My eyes are so blue.
My smile is so wide
There’s never something new.
My hair is so brown
My eyebrows so thin
But that’s all on the outside,
No one tries to go in.
My years are so salty yet so bittersweet
I have no one around
To taste the tears that I leak.
My world is so lonely
My heart is so cold
My life is a story
That has never been told
My pain floats around
At the bottom of my stomach
Of the cliff above thousands
They watch as to the bottom,
I plummet.
A little inspiring story to push you through
I am one to feel these same emotions. and I just got over these overbearing emotions that make it hard to get by. Ill give you the secret to success.
Take a gamble! way up everything that is stressing you out and if you have an opertunity to pack up and try something new. Go for it. If you see the same old ruetine is killing you. The same job. The same anything. Change it. Accept the change. Don't run from the fears but embrace them confront them and put up a fight. Dont just sit and take the pain they dish out.
Ill give you my sceneriio. I was at a job for 8 months. Making 10 dollars an hour going to college attending private music lessons. Sounds awesome right?
why would I want to change that? so the world thought. I paid for my own schooling and my transportation.
work was having me work 12 hour shifts on days I would have schedualed for school. My best friend I also worked with.
I dated a gril that worked and lived next door from my job. It ended badly so I am stuck in a dead end job making just enough to barly support myself.
It was terrible. little sleep. seeing haunted memories of a love I could not have back a stones throw away from my place of employment.
Its winter time and I power wash semi trucks. I live in micigan so I would get frost bite on a weekly basis from work.
It sucked physical mental and social pain. I was stuck I built my financial foundation around this job that gave me 60 hours a week.
well one day I prayed. I am not one to really be religious I am sort of an atheist dont go to church and never speak of god or anything.
I was more so pleading to myself to find a way out of the mess I was in. I applied around everywhere and no results nothing hiring.
It got to the point that I was beyond struggling I was abusing xanax and ritalin to get through the day.
I decided that was my breaking point (Long history of drug abuse in my life) I am finaly considering myself clean.
I said FUCK IT! I quit on the spot at work. yeah not the right thing to do. I got home. applied to every place of employment I could name off the top of my head in a radius of 20 miles. I took a week vacation to visit family who livedtoo far away to see on a regualr basis.
why I was up there I landed a job that works around my schedual and it pays 13 dollars an hour!
it works around my school schedual and its a lot more easy and laid back work.
The moral of this long story is TAKE RISKS! dont beat yourself up everyday if its able to be changed.
Clock out of whatever is eating you alive. go take a nice long relaxing week vacation to a place that comforts you
and start fresh with a new approach when you come back. It will work and you will feel better! Good luck I have faith!
G
The ending was brilliant and
The ending was brilliant and very unexpected. I didn't see it coming. Beautifully lyrical!
great read
lot of emotion, great read. I've been there.
Amazing! <3
Amazing! <3
"Everybody is a genuis. But if you judge a fish on it's ability to climb a tree, it will live it's whole life believing that it is stupid"
Albert Einstein
LOVE IT!!!!!!
LOVE IT!!!!!!
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