i wish i had you forever. you are just beyond my reach. you stay there, no matter how far foward i run, nor how fast, you are always one step further out of my grasp. i want you to realize what i see in you. i want you to know i am there. i wish my fellings would last forever, but they are lighter than air. they float away faster than a speeding bullet, and they are unable to catch. i try to find out why i love you but that is the hardest thing in the world to do. i dont know. you are adorable, but what is there to see in me? i have nothing there for you and there is nothing you want. nothing that you would like to have that i can offer you. for me, you can give me acceptance, you said you wanted to be friends, but since that misunderstanding, we have grown further and further apart. i still love you as much, if not more than i did the day i first realized you, but it seems that the more i do, the less you seem to even see me. how is that? am i more invisible than i was at first. is that even possible? ive run out of things to say, without repeating them forever, so i will let you go, just remember that i am here for you.
I feel like this alot-- like everything is just beyond my fingertips and spinning away, even things that I used to have