unspeakable thoughts

I can't say what i think.

Why?

Cause it's not allowed.

I am afraid of hurting people if i say anything.

I'm afraid of being a bad person if i say what i feel.

I have good thoughts.

Everyone does.

But the ones I want to say are bad.

THats why i can't say what i want to.

It would hurt feeling, maybe even destroy friendships.

I want to say it, but my mouth seals itself shut as a safegaurd.

If i am in a fight, I am the first to apolagize even if it isn't even my fault.

Everyone can get mad and say what they feel.

But, I can't. It isn't allowed.

I don't want to be a bad person.

I don't want to hurt people.

I can never say whats on my mind.

I can't say anything.

It would be wrong.

It would make me a bad person.

It isn't allowed.

But, I have so many thoughts.

It's like falling off a cliff.

About to break.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

i don't know what to say about this one.   its...me.

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pudnsis1's picture

Well said. Here is a quote from my fav. character, Thumper,"If you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all." lol. In Poest Poems. You can say anything you want and we won't tell a soul without your permission. You have grat potential and I also am struggling for words, so please keep writing. Linda