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Dear Dad,

I never knew where to start, where to begin, iv always wanted to say a few things, tell you a few storys, memories that
i know you dont remember, to show you a few pictures, that are trapped forever inside my head. Things that will never go away
that will always stay. Show you, let you hear, all the pain, and the sadness, all the anger over the past 18 years of my life. And you
always tell me, that i target you, that i attack you, well dad fact is, it is all your fault for allf of it. You caused every bit of pain, every bit
of sadness, every bit of anger, that is trapped inside my body. All the years, all the months, all the weeks and days, that you abused me,
that you used me, that you said all those mean things, that tore me up over and over again, all those times your hands hurt me, all the times
they hit me, they left behind scars. Some will fade, some will go away, but some run deeper then the skin, some of those will always be there,
inside my heart, inside my mind, inside my memories, they will never go away. They may ease, they may fade, in time, but they will never go away.
They always will be there, causing me pain in my life.And im the one that has to ignore it, has to deal, has to learn to live with it, learn to deal, and live
with a smile on my face. That smile has always been on my face, even when you hurt me, the frowns have come and go, but i always smiled, cause i had
people rooting and cheering me on, telling me i could do anything that i wanted. Even when you didnt, even when you refused, to love, to care, to protect, to share, to talk, to listen, to help, to teach, i had other people who where there to. They did you job for you, cause you didnt want to, cause you couldnt man up and be the dad you where suposed to be. And i understand in your head i proboly was you little mistacke, your regret, something you wish you never did, but you made me, so how can you just reject me? Tossing me to the side, telling me all those lies, beating me day or night, how could you? I was you little girl, who just wanted some attention, who wanted some affection, who wanted some protection, but instead, you tossed me to the side, pushing me to the ground, making me find myself. I had everybody else in this world here for me, friends and family, everybody there to love and care for me, trying to protect me, trying to pick me up off the ground, and trying to teach me right from your wrong. You have hurt me, more then once, twice,or three times, and now i cant get myself to forgive you again, i cant get myself to let it go, i cant get myself to let it go, my heart has been broken many times, and iv had to stich it up again and again, im tired of the bleeding, im tired of the scars,im tired of the pain, that comes from all your abuse, all your hate, all your regret, all your anger, and im done. I dont have to deal with it anymore, i dont have to listen to your lies, or bullshit anymore, i dont have to follow your stupied rules, i dont have to , cause im not a kid anymore, im a adult, and im finally free, from you, now its time for me to live, for me to shine, for me to live a life, for me to follow my heart and dreams, to live my goals and keep on believing. You have hurt me, not once, not twice, not three times, but so much more, im sorry i cant forgive you, i cant let it go, iv tried to, but you keep on pushing yourself deeper into the hole. So now i say goodbye.

-Erica