Jealousy is an ugly broad.
With big green eyes.
And sharp, pointed yellow teeth
that bite through skin
like a knife through pork fat.
With just a whisper or two
she can turn you against your best friend,
And make you saying things you regret.
"Oh please, it's not my fault he wants me."
"You've always been ugly anyway."
"No wonder your father left you guys."
And then she will fill you with guilt,
in the form of a small child...
clutching a dirty stuffed rabbit...
"I didn't mean it... I swear...
Don't hate me I promise it's not true...
Forgive me please.... I didn't mean it...
I...
swear."
She chimes over and over inside your head
like loud ringing church bells on Sunday morning
expect the sound of her voice never stops.
Then she becomes a poor homeless man,
who is supposed to be "The Beggar."
Clawing at the coat tails of long lost friends,
begging them to re-enter your life,
swearing eternal gratitude for just a morsel....
of kindness.
Swearing to crawl by their side like a mutt to their master
for a crumb of goodwill.
The she shifts once again into the form of anger,
A heavy handed mother with an overbearing belt
pummeling the small bodies of your own insecurities,
each word punctuated by the stinging slap
of leather to still healing skin.
"Who.... needs.... you.... anyway..
You... are.... dumb.... I... hate... you....
I... need.... no.... one.... because... I've.... got...
Jealousy who is an ugly broad
with many forms...
That make you do and say
what you don't really mean....
Jealousy sucks A**! Some
Jealousy sucks A**! Some moments of feeling that way are such a fight for me. Hate it! Work hard to kill her but she still likes to torment me even when I got my steel heels pounded down on her back. Eventually, however, I can quiet the bitch and move through to healthier emotions.
Enjoyed the write. :)
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