Betrayal

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2002

Deep, dark feelings and thoughts

Things meant only for paper and pen,

- sometimes not even.

My spirit is in pain;

almost physical, this feeling of betrayal.



Words - written only to express the deepest thoughts of the mind,

written in a moment of intense feeling,

written for the sole purpose of giving order to my frantic thoughts -

were looked upon, read, thought about, processed -

by another mind.

A physical blow, almost, to me.



No, my mind silently shouts in terror.  No!  Please, tell me it isn't so.

To a spirit so fragile and sensitive already,

this blow is too great to handle.



No more shall my pen so readily trust the paper.

No more

No more

"Run and hide/to the corners of your mind/like a nobody nowhere"

I tremble and shake and cry,

exposed,

worse than being physically so

so much worse

No more

No more shall my pen so readily trust

no more

no more

The blow is too great

I tremble, shake, and cry

No more

No more!

run and hide

to the corners of your mind

no more!

no more!

Worse than being physically exposed

no more!

no more!

Revealed, bare, exposed

No more!



Exhausted, tired, weak.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

The quotes are from Donna William's autobiography, "Nobody Nowhere"

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WOW I HAVE
BEEN THRU THAT
BEFORE TO AND
IT WAS TOUGH TO .