Will I Survive

Sometimes I feel life a motherless child

As far as a father, I know I've been deprived



Sometimes I wish the world could look deep into my eyes

And feel the pain from the experiences I've survived



Sometimes I as God why I face hardships each day

Feeling too many for the role of coincidence to play



And when I look at my past, I wonder what next to expect

And I think of my future and things I have not dealt with yet



Sometimes I wonder...who cares if I live or if I die

Or who cares if I hurt and who cares when I cry



Who is it who cares when the world weighs me down

Who cares when I feel I can't turn my life around



Who gives a damn about how I'm feeling inside

Or who thinks about my issues and what things destroy my pride



Who is it that worries when I can't sleep at night

Or if I will survive when it's time to face my next fight



And I know that I'm supposed to always keep the faith

But lord knows it's hard when you're left with problems to face



And I wonder what gives me strength to endure each day and night

I guess I trust God enough to know that it will be alright



So I give it all to him and use patience as my guide

Because no one knows the troubles I face but God knows I will survive


Author's Notes/Comments: 

Being a person that suffers from chronic depression a lot of my poetry stems from pain. Writing would be my therapy and a lot of my work reflects the harshness of the pain I felt. When I wrote this poem I was hopeless but I never let that fact keep me from believing that somehow things will change.

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BMosley's picture

I agree Giving GOD the glory and faith it the exact answer. Someone always has it worse than we do and contrary to popular belief GOD never puts more on us than we can handle.


Every day we witness is a blessing, desipite the outcome!

 

Bmosley