Through this life of experience
I've come to believe with great evidence
That I am a vessele through which emotions flow
If I'm subjected to more pain than affection
Then my life would have a negative projection
And with coldness my heart will grow
With a cold heart I'm subceptible to sin
With all the grief I hold within
And my mind then becomes a dangerous place
For all the things I choose to do
The consequences will come along too
And these repercussions I am then left to face
So when my heart speaks, my mind must listen
My eyes must see a different vision
For the things I do determines what I will become
But if my eyes can't see, or my mind comprehend
And those negative emotions still grow within
Then my purpose for life will be left undone
Brilliant, I am so impressed with your sense of responsibility amidst the struggles derived from a painful and emotional challenged life. Often times The character developed through lack of love from others makes us better prepared to deal with life and develop a stronger sense of self love despite our imperfections. I pray that life has been more positive for you as an adult or that you have developed a resistance to the unfortunate outsiders whom neglect to see your value. Loving yourself is therapy against the often unfair/cruel world.
Every day we witness is a blessing, desipite the outcome!
Bmosley