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Somedays I wonder why we have these feelings

I know that you created them for our well being

But somedays it causes you to miss someone so much it hurts

Deep inside it feels as though destiny have given up on you

Lord sometimes I just don't understand why I feel this way

cuz it hurts so much. Why do I have to feel this way about this person? Why does my stomach turn upside down and go in directions never thought of? I had feelings for someone once before and you took them away when I asked but they are still here, and it seems to hit me harder. Hitting me harder to the point where you just want to see them badly. It's also hard to discipline yourself at times with this. Not getting carried away with these emotions. It's tough to just sit back not talking to them when you so badly want to.  Lord I do not know if you're teaching me something or what. God I thought you took the feeling away, but when I saw them again it slapped me right across the face. I was mad at myself as well I do not want to tell her this. I've told her once before, but if I do that could mean losing friendship? I am not prepared for that. Please help me to get over this. You placed her on my heart heavy, but why? Why have to put her on my heart so much where I just want to cry and pray for her? Why is it when I am at work she seems to be all I think about? God I try to get over her by thinking of someone else or at least may be trying to like someone else. At work I've done this and I've tried, but this high class woman keeps popping up in my mind. Even when I think of someone else it's like a voice that whispers her name softly in my ear. Why can I not get rid of this? I so badly want to hang out with her and willing to just wait it out,but in the midst of waiting it's tough. I just want to know why you're placing her on my heart? Why do I like her so much? I don't know her very much at all, but still when I am around her I feel such an incredible warmth, and she is so mature. She may have problems but we all do, and it doesn't hide the fact of how cool and how awesome she is.  I do not know why I feel such a warmth around her. Lord I do not know if it's you telling me this but I've had many dreams come true. You were saying she is hurting somehow but how can I be sure? Lord when I am around her I can't describe it. I want to know what it's like to be with a girl such as this. I mean to hang out with her, to get to know her better.  I don't know Lord, I want to leave it all in your hands, but she is really something. She is not like most girls,and I do not know why I have this with her, cuz I don't get this from anybody else but her. When I was away from her I missed her, and then I was fine. I thought I was over her, but then like I said it slapped me in the face where I just thought she was soooo cool and warm, and loving. I don't know but I can feel a love or something, it's the most amazing warm feeling.  Anyways please help me God to get over this. You put her on my heart for a reason, so please reveal it soon!