Just Enough to Stave off Solitude

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Dazzling eyes
a heart aglow
so genuine, so driven
so loyal it soothes the deepest burns
 
if anything, my belief in you..and you in me
would intoxicate noble innards
beyond the suspended realm of cynicism
into calmer, cooler, refreshing waters
 
What I would offer for your genuine desire..
there's no justifiable human currency
 
I don't say this lightly
but you deserve a passion and excellence far exceeding the common denominator
 
You are a rare blend of wisdom and beauty
initiative, character, and strength
 
Purely unaware of your charms, inadvertently reinforcing the treasures you possess
Nearly criminal for a fool to erode your trust and look elsewhere
 
I couldn't express how I felt at the time;
Too caught up in my own anguish, fear, my own depleted self-image
...and I couldn't take another day of pining from afar...
 
Besides, your love for him was immense
and I'm not one to tarnish love when sterling
 
...today, with much time gone by 
while you're still 'around'
I can hardly say we've shared a true conversation in ages
 
When I break it down, there's an aching;
Invisible to you, divisible to me,
that hasn't dissipated since yesteryear
 
And while it feels impossible to initiate the first step
I envision the next thousand effortless, calm, assured
 
A damn shame how this will play itself out,
Just Enough to Stave off Solitude.,
but not nearly enough to numb, let alone quell, my malcontent
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Thank you all for the

Thank you all for the positive feedback :)

running_with_rabbits's picture

wow blue just wow!

this hit home with me so hard it broke home down to its frame, I feel like each line became a different person i once knew until I was suddenly with the most impacting 'what if' I have ever not 'if'ed and I wanted to hug you and say "go tell her, read her this poem, let it play out how you want it to not how it always has" and then the very second that thought left my brain it became "but you can't because you are trapped in the walls of the house"

 

:) so glad I read this


Much Love

Ashley

nightlight1220's picture

I love this. Feel good that

I love this. Feel good that you have had the opportunity to have had people like this in your life. We all need role models in this life. I can think of at least three people I feel this way about--- and as pathetic as it may sound-- all three are family members that have for some reason drifted their own ways in life. You reach a point where it is almost as if what you shared---the wisdom gained, the examples they left-- are so precious, you don't want to disturb them, but keep them safe and sacred, and let the universe bring you something more if it is meant to be. When it is, the opportunity always makes itself evident. I never push anything anymore. It's proven to be just a big waste of my energy I can put towards something more productive. 

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "

 

Morningglory's picture

I enjoyed this read deepblue.

I enjoyed this read deepblue. It reminded me of someone very dear to me. Nice read.


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