So Many Times

I don't know what else to do so I just cry, as I sit in my room and think of new ways to die. I tried to get hit by a car, but the damn driver was straight and hadn't come from the bar. So I went home into my room then cuddled with my pillow, then got the idea of hanging from the weeping willow. The branch broke, and didn't leave me to choke. So I dropped to my feet, go into the house and take a seat. I grab a steak knife, hoping this will end my life. Slice my wrist as I see the blood drip down my hand. It wasn't deep enough so I cut again, pushing as hard as I can. The pain hurts worse and worse as the blood flows. I cover my face so no one else knows. Just as I start to feel dizzy and think I'm gonna die. I ask myself "how come this happened to me?? Why??"I just lay there as I'm thinking this is my last day to suffer. Then all what seemed a few minutes passed by and I started to feel tougher. I grabbed a chain and ladder then headed for a tree, then say to myself "THIS IS THE LAST TIME ANYONE MESSES WITH ME". I grab onto the ladder and climb up it Slip the chain and around my neck and tree, jump off the ladder as I scream "AHHH" I start to gag and choke, my eyes roll back in my head and then twenty minutes later I woke. But I'm in a different place, somewhere to where I'm not crowded and I have plenty of space.

It took so many times to kill me, now no else will ever hurt me because now I am free!!!

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twiztid_girl_'s picture

I really do like it... I wish i had come up with something like that!

crystal_chicka2006's picture

its just how I feel sometimes...don't deny that you don't feel like doing some of this shyt I wrote about..cuz I read some of yo poems and it includes some shyt like that..hehe I know I spot out some HELLA fine guys..I saw 2 of em today..whoa buddy were dey eva so fine!! *drools*

Apryll Bruner's picture

girl dont be like that!!! UR muh girl. Da best in da PROJECTS of MER~TOWN yo!! And if you werent here then who would i stage those fights with...lolz or Flipp over handle bars with, or ditch mikes bike in da woods with!!! Ur one of da CHICKAS no matter what.. And you spott out HELLA FINE guys too..