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Suicide Life is supposed to be so great,
Then how come I feel so much hate.
I keep waiting and waiting for it to improve.
Hoping and wishing that one day will go by smooth.
It gets worse and worse everyday.
I don't even know why I stay.My situation isn't the worse in the world but to me it seems so bad.It messes with my head and makes me sad.I don't get beatI get treated differently and I always have to compete. I get torn up inside and hurts so much that I start to hurt on the outside too.I cry myself to sleep, feeling so blue.Yet no one notices nothing because everything is going their way in life and when its perfect for them they think of no other.My parents treat me so differently from my brother.What happened to all those people who say they cared for me and would be there through thick and thin. But they are there just for me every now and then.They all ran once I needed them...because their life is JOY-JOY HAPPY!! I hate my life its so crappy.All this crap is driving me insane...and I think I'm the one to blame. Everything seems like its just a game.I try too hard and get nothing out of it.I just dont know what to do but stare and sit.I only think of one probable answer suicide...Jabbing a knive deep inside..Maybe into my heart,just as a start.Then putting a plastic bag over my head,
just trying to make sure that I'm really dead.Falling asleep in the bathtub,having water fill my lungs then someone brings me back to life.Just for me to think of how I will never be any man's wife.WHY DID YOU DO SUCH A HORRIBLE THING TO ME!!
Why didn't he just leave me be??I would rather die suffering then live in this world anymore.Everything to me is such a bore.I would pay someone to kill me if I had the money..I wish I could ask this favor to the Easter bunny.but I don't I'm a helpless teenager who no one gives a crap about.
I am just gonna explode while I scream and shout.
I'm just wasting my breath until I finally complete my mission of my death!!!
I know it wasn't a poem at first but it was just thoughts that I had and wrote down...just to get them out in the open but I have edited it and changed it into a poem :) I think its kinda sad that I feel this way and so many others feel this way...but I can't do anything about it :(
Even tho this isn't exactly a poem its still good... Especially the first stanza/paragraph (whatever u want to call it). I feel that exact same way every day. This is definatly one of my favorites of yours!