As I touch my belly
Love surrounds me
My love for him has produced true love
Is this god’s proof
Or is it a test of my will?
Tears fall from my face
A seed has been planted
And I must tear it from me like a weed
My heart aches with the decision we have made
But in my heart I feel love will conquer all
We will produce another flower
When love is in full bloom
For now I will wonder what she would look like
Her hair in perfect curls
A gorgeous smile just like her daddy
A pretty pair of eyes
And a huge heart full of love and understanding
I will see her one day
I will hold her one day
I will tell her why one day
Time is such a monarch
It rules me
It causes me to make decisions I just don’t want to make
But I will close my eyes and pretend that everything is fine
I will name her and keep it to my self
I will love her but pretend I don’t care
I will smile and know it’s because she’s in me
Tough call, beautiful write. I see the pain and emotion in your words, and I sympathize.