My lungs are filled with toxic fumes
Of the trust I once had in you.
I’m choking on my own tongue
Trying to find something to say
Look what you’ve done to me
Reduced me to nothing
But a small amount of hope.
I push past the envious crowd
Throwing jewelry and money,
And break into the abandoned house down the street,
Where I am free from your disease.
Quarantines don’t exist here,
In this beat up shack filled with caution tape.
The sun is pushing in my broken glass
Popping the bubble I used to hide in,
On all fours and crying
Don’t say it’s just because you can.
Can’t stop thinking about you
In all your glory
Your hand laced around my throat
Breathing into me your toxic breath,
I was so enamored.
And don’t think I have misjudged you
I’m not the sort of girl to forget.
Admitting to you that I can’t breathe
Would kill me before my absent lungs would
I need some time alone,
Away in my secret home
Where I’ll be just fine.
Thank you for being someone else
Anyway I saw you
Was beautiful
Like a muddy raincoat on an 80 year old man
Who is too tired to stand.
Now I’ve gone away,
You’ll find my heart sitting on a letter
Cursive inking your name
And my swirling handwriting dotting the I’s.
I like it how you put the words together...like you have some sort of control over them...