My shadows are at my back again-
they lurk
waiting for the right moment
and it would seem,
they have found it.
I can't fight them anymore,
so I shall simply claim defeat
this time.
I have not the inner nor outter
strength to do this battle.
Not again.
Not another one.
And so what if I give up?
No one gives a shit,
the tears wouldn't fall
for very long.
I'm tired...
don't you understand?
I am just so damn tired
of the game!
I can't keep fighting this alone-
an army of one
with no troop support.
I'm fatigued and empty.
Sometimes,
the emptiness is so strong,
so apparant,
that I feel concave
and vacant.
There is no 'better tomorrow.'
Been there, haven't done that.
My 'tomorrows' are always only
worse than my 'todays.'
I welcome the shadows,
willingly and subdued.
I lay myself prone
and bare to the soul.
Let them come,
let them come and devour me,
consume me,
for I have nothing left to
protest with anymore.
u can only fight them for so long