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are you still mad? alanis morissette
are you still mad I kicked you out of bed?
are you still mad I gave you ultimatums?
are you still mad I compared you to all
my forty year old male friends?
are you still mad I shared our problems
with everybody?
are you still mad I had an emotional affair?
are you still mad I tried to mold you into
who I wanted you to be?
are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad that I flirted wildly?
are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you?
are you still mad that I had one foot out of the door?
are you still mad that we slept together even after
we had ended it?
of course you are
of course you are
are you still mad I wore the pants most of the time?
are you still mad that I seemed to focus
only on your potential?
are you still mad that I threw in the towel?
are you still mad that I gave up long before you did?
of course you are
of course you are
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Aug 4 2004
yesterday i got into a fight with my boyfriend which landed me being sick and tierd of us always fighting. i knew we made a good couple and i do love him but the fighting and him just not even understanding me drove me nuts. i couldnt handle. and this song and others from alanis has made me feel better even though i'm crying on and off since yesterday. today would have been our six month aniversary. i dont care he wouldnt even walk me home. my birthday april 28th he was walking me home from his house and we got mugged. ever since then he wouldnt walk me home. i was scared ever since. the first couple weeks i would cry all the way home. and mom always told me he's not for me. why didnt i listen to her. i dnt know. maybe it was because i was falling for him. but know i have to forget him. and i'm scared he's going to say stuff about me. like he doese with all his ex girlfriends. he even flirted with my bestfriends. and on the weekend he got so drunk i bet you he cheated on me. breaking up isnt so hard but knowing that the other person has no feelings for you is even worse. when i told him it was over it sounded as if he didnt care. and i wondered why he was like that. but then i realised its because he wanted to he was waiting for me to do it first. one things good out of this hole ordeal is that now i could do what i want.
whoever reads this that knows me they well probably think good. no more ditching me off to go see that fucking ass hole.
and im sorry for that.
