I often find myself
Staring down at the world
From thirty thousand feet
Wondering
Is this the flight that will bring me down?
Wishful thinking
For a guilt-free exit
“I didn’t do it, it was the plane!”
And a premature death
Out of your hands
Is so much more tragic…
“Poor guy… he was so young!”
I briefly met
During recent travels
A young man named Erik
Ten years my junior
One night, after a party
He went home to his room
And seemingly choked
To death
On peanuts and vomit
He was, by far
The youngest employee
Who’d been sent
To this godforsaken place
“Poor guy… he was so young!”
I often find myself
Staring in the mirror
From many worlds away
Wondering
Whether the next fuck will bring me down
Wishful thinking
For a certain exit
“I did it, it was all me!”
And a premature death
Through your own hands
Is so much more pathetic…
“Served him right… the irresponsible fucker!”
Awful, sure a pitiful experience it was!