Journey Through the Snow Part 3 - Journey's End

Intractable cold flames now sting my shivering flesh.

These memorable times, our memories, shatter into broken pieces from the journey's storm.

Picking each shard with careless red hands I realize it cannot be.

Finally in a hopeless state I let each piece fall to the earth.

The storm changes.

Snow falls steadily now.

The northern wind blows it's sweet frosty breath against my cold body.

The ground is painted red by each drip my body releases.

Standing still, I see that nothing seems as it is.

I look up, mirroring that moonlit expression, at the horizon.

The sun's advent will come soon.

"Why?"

My words are without thoughts.

Seeing now that my bleeding is worse I walk to a nearby lake.

It too was broken.

As that watery blur appears in my eyes and my lips become a "contorted smile" huffing the pain away I silently dipped my hands into the freezing cold.

My thoughts are without words.

With this last time imagining if that dreamy image of me and you was before my sight I desperately tried to grasp what in reality was not there.

All at once the two words I've been meaning to say to you in this journey are torn apart.

Caught between reality and imagination in this icy land I ask:

Will the sun warm my days or will I be caught in these wintry nights?

Nonetheless this search is sadly over.

"At least I tried," I whispered.

Sweet blowing wind you've witnessed all I tried to do to reach him, please grant me just one request before this night ends.

All this time the someone who held anger at me never knew what I've been meaning to say but now I realize it'll never get across.

But hopefully, in someway, somehow, as I shout out one last time, please blowing wind, let these words be carried so that someday he'll hear and know.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

There are times in life where you regret something so badly you couldn't feel nothing else but that life was over.  Things you wanted to happen never came true.  I never did find this person ('Moon') again which hurts hella.  But after you've gone through the pain there's nothing left but to move forward.  Eventually I found other friends who were okay.  But one person, to whom I'll call 'Sun' (you know who you are) :) gave me even more relevations about myself and my relationship with the world.  I thank this person for "shining" a lot of things about me and helping me to see things in a "different light."  I think it's corny to say this but I really really respect this "sunny" person.  Partly because it's 'this sun' who gave me the final push to overcome 'Moon' and also with the other parts of me that were "ugly" except one last part of me that's extremely horrid...(???)  Anywayz, thank you from the bottom of my heart, 'Sun.'

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To "Pinky," thanx for everything...