i told you i hated sappy poems
about life; love; joy; pleasure; fluffiness
i hate them because i never could understand
what all the buzz about love was
or maybe i hate them because i tried so hard to understand
but i never could
sappy poems sapped the life out of me
fantasizing about floating on clouds
imaginary ponies and a knight in shining armor
but the reality of it was
a blackened heart and a broken mirror
a shattered life, a torn identity
the pieces glued themselves together
and desperately sought to find inspiration
for a sonnet, for a song, for just one kind verse
yet still--nothing
solace was sought; found in what had knocked me off my pedestal
the written word had my soul written all over it
loyalty for warmth and light--lost
black, cold, hard--found
with but one candle left behind in the caverns
somehow-i don't know how-you found the solitary candle
and kindled it with your love
i didn't mean to let you in
you shouldn't have gotten in past the dragons who guard the gates
perhaps, though, the gods had mercy on you and let you pass
perhaps, though, the gods had mercy on me and let you pass
II
christ, i hate love poems
they make you feel all tingly
and you feel like love can change the world
they're useless, they're worthless, they're mindless
see why i hate love poems?
see why i love you?
I wouldn't change a thing about this poem. It is perfect because it puts butterflies in my stomach and takes my breath away every time I read it.
I love you more than I thought I could love anyone, and reading this poem is one of the ways I know you loe me just as deeply.