The Original Thought

The original thought was to be with you

Now im not sure what to do

Ever since I hung out with her

Now our love seems to be blurred



I can still feel it but it's really hard

Like its free and i'm behind bars

I love both of you and I don't wanna choose

Neaither one of you do I ever want to loose



I feel liked it's not up to me

You leaving is all I can see

I quit I dont wanna play this game

It's not your fault i'm doing this,i'm the one to blame



I know if I leave you things won't be great

Feels like my life will be cornered by hate

I know if I leave you things won't be the same

And once again i'm the one to blame



I'm the one to blame for these thoughts

It's not you Alyssa it's my fault

Dont know why I feel this way

I feel as if my veiw on life has changed



I now know life is a crazy thing

All this sh** in mine that happening

Thats the end,now I must go

You don't know who I choose?  I guess you'll never know



Fine i'll tell you, I feel better

No more dark clouds, I got better weather

I now know my life wont go down hill

I'm sorry Alyssa but i'm leaving you for Jill

Author's Notes/Comments: 

  I wrote this poem befor I decided to dump my girlfriend for my bestfriend Jill Carver

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alyssa's picture

Knowing it wasn't the intention to do it, but still. Yeah. Now we're bestest buddys! lol. I got torn into many pieces when you did that. but paul, i love you (in the friendly way)

*alyssa*

Jillian Camtasia Carver's picture

sniffle sniffle...