Hold it in// not my sins

Can't you see (x2)

You're killing me (Killing me)

Can't you see 

It's growing in me.

 

Lost control (x2) 

Thought I could handle

Pull down my sleeves (down my sleeves)

And hold it in. 

These aren't my sins. 

 

My eyes, they drift

and

The pain in your eyes is clear

Hurting you's my one fear

 

What, what does it take

To make my escape 

Your softened glare

I can't leave you, no, not here

 

Stare at my plate

Plan my demise

I'm crying

But consider my thighs. 

 

I hold it in.

These aren't my sins.

 

Wake me up

My stained sleeves

You weren't supposed to see.

You wouldn't understand,

these injuries

Inflicted upon me.

 

Screaming

Screaming

Clawing at my skull

No escape

No way to dull 

this pain. 

 

Skyrocketing

 

This pain 

 

When will it end.

 

I can tell you've been crying

You went back to church

your hands worn from prayer

I see your heart lurch

 

These scars aren't healed

no, not yet

Godly activities can't save a thing

 

Can't come for me

Can't save me

 

Nimble fingers, twisting and tying

Now, I am no longer cry............

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

5/16/16; childhood depression multigenre project lyrics; demons escaping; all shall be well in the end