You look at me, I smile.
You keep looking so I do it a while
Longer. Just waiting for you to turn away
Avert your gaze so I can say,
I'm fine and I'm not shedding a tear.
Sometimes you put so much on me
That I can't take it all, you see?
I hold back and try not to cry
And tell you that my eyes are dry,
That there's nothing to fear.
I want you to see that it hurts
That I clutch my shirt
Holding my breath and go silent.
Hiding my feelings when I'm afraid to get violent.
I love you but you hurt me too!
When you're quiet and thinking
And your eyes not blinking.
That rage you hold in, it pains me
Just to watch you hurt and see
That you won't talk it through.
Not right away and I fill with guilt
Knowing it's not my fault at all.
But my heart is not strongly built
So for you I shall fall!
I hate to see you bittersweet
For to me you are my sweet!
So the next time you look vile,
Just remember my love and smile!
~1/20/09