Heavenly Father? Why have You forsaken me? I've been caught by fishers of men and thrown back. Abandon me. Return me to a sea of chemicals. Blot my name and make me the man I was. A man of flesh; of sin. My faith is none and the mustard seed is mighty! Again, I am the seed on the path, the rocks, amongst thorns! Where is your fruit? I am cut off from the vine and collected to the fire! Your will be done. Amen?