I have heard every excuse,
Every hurtful remark,
Cried tears until they cannot flow.
I closed up,
Built a wall,
Where no one could come or go.
A dragon fly am I.
I have no markings,
To protect me, just my wits.
Knowledge of survival and cunning.
If it were not so,
I’d be swallowed whole,
By a fish,
While I walked on the water.
I am in command,
Of whether I live or die,
I move too fast, or too slow,
I keep no roots, but keep moving like a rolling stone.
I have heard…..
“toxic waste”,
“garbage dump”,
“battery acid”, not to mention, “fish queen”.
For THAT PLACE, THERE.
But I am so alive,
Recovered from a rusty gun,
At the hands of a juvenile pranksters “fun”.
Raped, and left like a sperm bank…
”Thank-you for making your deposit.”
I wasn’t interested in “THERE” anymore.
How do I grieve without tears?
And I refused to be a victim again,
Be it by MEN, or WOMEN.
My life is in music,
Even though I can’t play a single note.
A song that plays on the radio,
The sweet voice of Debra Cox.
I dream of a beautiful woman,
Like a ghost, walking in a garden of flowers,
Dreaming in color of my own personal video.
I am immersed in the lyrics of the song,
"Nobody’s Supposed To Be Here"...
Yet,before I knew it,
The ghost became real,
Kissed me with soft, tender, wet lips,
She touched me…..
THERE.
Originally wrote: March 18, 2003
Again, exquisitely done!
Starward