Family Tree

You are to be a challenge

This title "Family Tree"

As I set to bring you to life

I will start with what I see.



Your branches spread in dignity

Upon a parchment page.

The symbol of genealogy

You now, have set the stage.



Your trunk of majestic beauty

separates two family names.

A blank line placed beneath each branch

to tell of whence we came.



So as I begin this story,

It soon will be plainly seen . . .

That my tree, leans in the winds of questions

There really is, no ~

me.



Adopted as a baby,

and placed in loving arms

I was granted the love of family

when I could have come to harm.



To ask of them the questions

Would only bring them pain

So I tried to search for records

but the questions still remain.



I am somewhere a written page

sealed within a vault.

A victom of antiquated laws

No one will take the fault.



I do not want to cause a problem.

I simply need to see,

A statement of my beginning

the person . . . really me.



It seems to me a travisty

At my ripe old age,

That I am not allowed to see

What is written on my page.



Do I look just like my mother?

Was my father's name ~ maybe ~ Joe?

I guess in all my lifetime

I may never really know.



God Bless the mother given me,

My father now is gone.

If I were to ask of her my questions

She would feel it was so wrong!



My grown children now have joined me

In the wonderings of my past.

They want to know their heritage.

It is their right to ask.



Please understand, I have no doubt

That I am truly loved.

For all that they have given me

I thank the Lord above!



Of what I know, my name is Lesa.

My Father's name was Dale.

My Mother's name is Betty,

I don't think there was a Gayle.



I am the grandaughter of Nina.

My grandfather's name was John.

Of who has always been my family

I could go on and on!



So whose names rightfully should appear

On my side of the tree?

The family that has always loved me

And their history.



Because I know within my heart

that this is what should be

I often feel the pangs of the guilt

Of my disloyalty?



For I will always wonder,

when I see a Family Tree ~

If one of the names beneath its branches

Really should be

~Me~


























Author's Notes/Comments: 

This work started out to be a challenge from Hawk Squaw, who is well known within our Halls.  We gave each other a title, and the challenge was to write a poem and post it to our site.  What it has became, is a true look within myself.  I have always wondered about my real family.  Are there siblings?  Why was I given up?  My adopted mom would be crushed if approached her with these questions.  Someday I will search, but not while she is living. I am loved as if I was a born to my parents.  In fact, my mom, has always told me... "If the Lord told me that I could only save you or Gary (my brother through adoption) from a burning building I would have to burn with you, because I could not choose."  I love my family with all of my heart and I feel disloyal feeling the way I do.. but ~ the questions have always been there.  Who am I really?  What is my true "Family Tree"?  ~Lesa~

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heatherburns35's picture

I really like this poem. You have
every right to seek for the
answers. However you are very blessed
to have your family.

chris's picture

So many questions.
You have a right to know the answers, as do other people.
I do hope you find the answers.
We all wonder.
Good job. Good luck!

Douglas Lazard's picture

Lesa, you write of your curiosity with a loyal and truthful heart... This poem should be read by all who have ask these same questions... for they are valid! I pray that one day you find the answers and that they are satisfactory !
Peace and love ~~~~ Dougie ~~~

vjochum's picture

Eloquently written Lesa.
You were blessed to be put within the loving hands of an adoptive family. The questions you hold in your mind are very natural and hopefully one day you will not feel guilt for having those questions. It took alot of courage for you to look inside yourself and write this piece. I applaude you for that.

onelilartist's picture

Lesa, you have every right and every good reason to feel that questioning inside. This is beautiful and well worth the effort.
Love,
Jess

HAWK SQUAW's picture

well you stepped right up to the plate on this one.....

wow....this one blew me right out of the water..... having no idea that you were adopted..... wow wild ..... you have written this with such open hearted honesty..... I believe that people that read this will love it.... it says volumes to those that have been adopted into loving and caring homes.... but the wondering is the thing that gets me..... where did I come from.... who do I look like.... things like that.... I believe that when we get to be adults we should be allowed to view our page of history from where we came.....

well done Lesa.... this was wonderful.... I would like to invited others to read this....

have a great day
Hawksquaw

Tim / manatee Marshall's picture

HI & hello,how sweet it is riding the wave of a good feeling poem,you layed it down beautiful, I think the main thing for me is get a title and the rest comes and surrounds and caresses the beauty of a poem and the poet
Renee' and i use to do this title thing and we were rewarded in our own hearts,now i'll see who
and what you like I'M gonna read ya lol thanks,good poems are usually just hit the keys fast,and if my words are spelled wrong they still mean the same lol
L&Peace