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Push Away

I try and I try

to push you away

but from the looks of it

your here to stay



I cry and i cry

i try and i try

i lie to

push you away



The tears fall hard

alone I will be

i use my abrasive tongue

i try to push you away



My words are jagged

my thoughts are harsh

i hurt so why shouldn't you

i try to push you away



I try so hard

i am so mean

i really can't see

why won't you push away

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I hate letting people get close to me and when they start to I panic and seem almost to lose my breath.  Here is a poem i wrote about trying to push my BF away.

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last updated 11 October 2010 - 2:23am
©19 December 2001 - 11:06pm — ashleeana
20 December 2001 - 11:06pm — Dewey Davis (not verified)
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It's a thing a lot of us do, causing pain to ourselves and others. You did a good job describing what it feels like.

20 December 2001 - 11:06pm — Miranda Rae (not verified)
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Ashlee, I can relate to this one very well. After a traumatic incident I went through ten years ago, I was very mistrustful of everyone. I tried to push a lot of people away yet at the same time I didn't want to be alone either. Thank goodness my real friends and the people who knew me best and loved me most understood and wouldn't let me shut them out. Thank you for posting this. I know it's hard and scary to trust people a lot. I hope you find the strength and the wisdom to know when it's okay to not push people away anymore.